For as long as I can remember, I had the idea in my mind that I was supposed to do something special. Even as a young child I have a few faint memories of thinking, “I’m special. I’m going to do something significant.”
Years later, I’d realize that there wasn’t really anything special at all about that thought because we all have it at one point or another. We all believe we’re supposed to do something “big” with our life...that we’re special. Little did I know at the time, but that initial idea which was sparked in my mind would lead me down the path I travel today.
For the past eight years, I’ve studied feverishly with one goal in mind. Everything from books like Think & Grow Rich, The Millionaire Mind, and The Secret to John Maxwell’s 21 Irrefutable Laws of Leadership, all books very popular in sales and commission-based business environments due to the focus around self-actualization, or realizing one’s potential, and money (a part of self-actualization, to most).
I’ve read just about every major self-development book you can name, from Tony Robbins' Unlimited Power to The Magic of Thinking Big. Later, I’d dive into Positive Psychology and the study of happiness and our overall well-being by reading the likes of Martin Seligman, Shawn Achor, Sonja Lyubomirsky, and others.
Lastly, I moved on to everything spirituality and worldly wisdom, eventually landing on Buddhism, most specifically Zen and the likes of Thich Nhat Hanh, Alan Watts, D.T. Suzuki, Shunryu Suzuki, and other teachers from The Dalai Lama and Pema Chodron to Chogyam Trungpa, and of course, the Buddha.
Each new book I read, each new talk I listened to, and each new person I studied, from the self-actualization arena to pure “self-development”, “well-being”, and “spirituality”, I got a little bit closer. But a little bit closer to what? It was always about fulfilling the need, filling the hole I felt inside of myself.